I am so boooored (Taken with instagram)
- 2nd June
2012 - 02
- 28th May
2012 - 28
My eating is so erratic…yet somehow I think I may have managed to lose weight…
- 28th May
2012 - 28
thank you so much for what you wrote, any words of support mean a lot to me right now... It's is good to know what people with similar problems as yours are going through, maybe inpatient would be good because of that as well... I hope everything will be fine eventually, recovering in outpatient is really stressful for me because no one controls my eating except for myself.. My parents have no idea about my lies and I think I know I should find help.. Thanks a lot (: Keep fighting! <3
Asked by: lifeofglass
I’m glad that I could be of any help! I get what you’re saying totally as well, it is quite helpful at times knowing other people’s experiences, it somehow makes things seem less overwhelming at times, so inpatient would be a good thing for that I think, plus you won’t have to have the stresses of controlling your eating (which I struggle with too). That’s partially why I want to go inpatient as well. Hopefully all goes well for you! And I will keep fighting, as should you! <3
- 27th May
2012 - 27
This has been my snack for the past two nights…it’s really tasty but it makes me nervous, as it’s not exactly the most low calorie snack I could be eating…I figured it was alright though, seeing as how I’m down to one snack and two meals a day, so I figured my intake being closer to 1,500 on the weekends would be alright…as long as I don’t start gaining weight anyways.
Anyhow, it’s fat free peach yogurt with a small handful of roasted almonds and a bit of that Great Grains Nut Medley cereal. Really yummy~
- 26th May
2012 - 26
Eating disorders are really about excessive control, painful perfectionism, and stubborn self-hatred. They are not about whether or not your thighs touch, the width of your hips, the size of your butt, or the number on a scale. Unfortunately, anorexia, bulimia, and related disorders exist at every number on the scale. Eating disorders do not discriminate. Ed will be happy to destroy your life at whatever size and weight you happen to be. Don’t give him the chance.(via aterriblybeautifulmess)(Source: mwanzotena, via waytorecoveryandselfconfidence)
- 26th May
2012 - 26
I just want to curl up and die right now and I have no idea why…why is my mood so low? I don’t know what to do…and the one person who I always talk to…well, I think I’d be more of an annoyance than anything to them right now, so I guess I have no choice but to hope that this will go away and that I won’t do anything stupid…
- 26th May
2012 - 26
Oh my god I feel so fat I wanna cry…why did I eat so much? Especially all those almonds…so many calories…
- 26th May
2012 - 26
I don’t know what I was thinking when I thought I could read this book…it’s one of my favorites from a few years ago, and one that will always be a favorite to me, and I’ve read it countless times, but the main character has an eating disorder and even though it’s not even close to the main focus of the book, it’s still triggering the fuck out of me. And yet, I can’t stop reading it either…
- 26th May
2012 - 26
I have so much homework to do, and only like three weeks left to do it. I have two research assignments in art, one art assignment to hand in, one to finish, plus my exam project to start and finish plus artist statements for all three. Then I am currently three units behind in studying for my pre-calculus exam, which is on the 14th, and then a design project in consumer math plus reflection pieces and the provincial exam to study for. And then last but not least I still have one more recording to do for band class. Holy shit, that’s a lot…plus I was supposed to clean the bathroom and my betta tank today…and what am I doing? Absolutely nothing productive because I’m so freaking tired.
Plus I am going to the library yet, so no work being done today, then I’m going to the city tomorrow, and Tuesday is my last school concert and Wednesday I’m working and Friday is grad skip so I’m going “camping” and Saturday…well, I haven’t decided on whether or not I’m going to my university event, I think I’d rather not and just hang out with my friends instead. I’m probably not even going to university next year anyhow, and if I did it would only be second semester.
Where am I going to find the time to catch up I wonder…
- 26th May
2012 - 26
I’m not sure if this is just me being overly paranoid, but I’m pretty sure my heart rate is lower than what it usually is…and I’m experiencing lots of little aches and pains all over, and shortness of breath. Plus I’m super tired…and I’ve been on the verge of almost passing out at least two or three times this week…I’m not sure why, it’s not like I’ve been restricting super heavily for very long, or very consistently either. I’m not even sure that I’ve lost weight at all, although I may have lost some…I don’t trust that number, I need to see it at least once more to believe it…
